to a guy that i might call a lot of bad things, but at the end of the day will always be in my heart. 17 years ago you were brought here, 4 years ago i met you, and 2 years ago i fell in love with you. I can happily say that I’ve successfully fallen out of love with you, but that youll forever have that special little corner of my heart. You may be a jerk and an asshole and a toxic person, but i still seriously wish you the best. Ill always remember the happy times we had. I hope you have the most extraordinary of days, you deserve it… well no, you actually dont, but the point of this was to be nice and remind you that even though you think im a psycho bitch like the rest of my friends that ill always love you as my bestfriend and theres nothing you can do to change that. Happy birthday, “te quiero bestie”.
“Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. If you’re wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesn’t love you anymore.”—Lady Gaga
how can something that feels so right be so wrong? i dont really believe its wrong, society thinks its wrong, my parents think its wrong, hell, my bestfriend thinks its wrong, but its just so right. it one of those “hard to explain” things. like just the way i am when im with him, he brings out the fearless, the crazy, the sexy, the unstoppable in me. its a good thing that im doing this for me. im done being all upset. im finally accepting that what i once had was in the past, and that its time for something fresh. someone who call me beautiful, someone who makes me smile, someone who i can be me around, someone who is actually making an effort to break down all the walls i have. I havent really analyzed how i feel about him yet, i guess the truth is, i dont want to know how i feel, theres so much that could go wrong with “feelings”— they change, really fucking fast. i guess ill just stop feeling and do. dont think, stop dipping my toes and dive in already. <3